Crawling

One week and and two days before my baby turns 9 months and he's crawling backwards. It's quite funny because he was trying to get daddy's shoes which were in front of him, but he was moving backward, and he didn't seem too happy about it, lol. Maybe he'll crawl the other way soon.

Edit to add: AJ can now sit up by himself. Before I had to put him into the sitting position. Tonight, he woke up crying and Aaron and I went in to see him. He was sitting up crying. We both laughed at him, just because it was so wierd to see him sitting up in his crib.

What else is my son going to do tonight?!?!

The World Keeps Turning Upside Down

Every time I think that I've gotten my feet set, and I'm starting to head in the right direction to getting my life to where I want it to be... the world decides to turn upside down on me.

It really started with leaving Kevin. I was *mostly* financially stable with Kevin. It doesn't really mean that I knew I was going to always have money, but I knew when we were going to have rough patches, and when we were going to be fine. I knew when we spent the bulk of our money, and when we were going to scrounge for pennies. Then I left Kevin. I left the majority of my stuff, because it wasn't worth fighting with him to get it back. I also left my money in our bank account. I started fresh. I was working, and I was getting a little bit of money, I was staying at a friends house where I didn't have to pay any bills until I got back on my feet.

I met Aaron, and I moved in with my mom, and I was slowly getting back up on my feet. Before I could even get a foothold with one foot, I found out I was pregnant. That put a big dent in our already not so good financial situation, seeing as Aaron had just bought his home, and I didn't really have a job. Being a substitute I don't have work, and I was helping a friend with her kid but getting next to nothing moneywise.

We started to do a little better with money and bills around the end of my pregnancy, but oops, lets just turn the world over again and put her big pregnant ass on bedrest, with no hopes of any money at all.

So, after I had AJ, and struggling through the summer, and beginning of school. I recieved my financial aid. Aaron had regular hours at work, our bills were caught up. TURN THE FUCKING WORLD ALL THE WAY AROUND!!!!!

Today, Aaron is fired. Our sole income is gone, without notice. And Heather knew and didn't even call me to tell me. I was shopping and having a good time, and Aaron calls to tell me. I left the cart where it was because now I can't afford to buy what I was buying. Actually, I was buying some Christmas gifts for family and clothes for AJ. Now, I can't afford it. We are going to go back to going weeks without being able to food shop, to the point where I was going to my mom's house to take food from her freezer. For God's sake, Laura if you are reading this I'm sorry, but I even stole diapers from her so I could go one more day without having to buy diapers, because money might just magically appear the next day.

WHY CAN'T I BE HAPPY?!?!? WHY CAN'T THINGS WORK OUT IN MY FAVOR?!?!

What's Up?

What's up with me? Everything and nothing at the same time. I'm up way early for who knows what reason, and AJ is as well. We'll both probably need a nap soon and it's only 7:30 lol.
So, here is what I've been up to: cleaning my house, going to work, doing my schoolwork, being a mom, being a girlfriend, working on halloween invitations... just whatever comes my way.

School is going very well. I'm keeping up quite well, even with a baby. I'm very proud of myself. I'm actually going to work when I can. I didn't go yesterday, but that was because the baby was sick on Monday and Aaron stayed up all night with him. I didn't want to go to work and have him stay up with him all day as well, Daddy needs sleep too!!!

Yes, I did say Halloween invitations! Heather and I are going to throw a Halloween party. There are actually two seperate parties in one. There is Thomas' Boo Bash for 4+ and AJ's Pumpkin Patch for 3 and under. The Halloween invitations are nice. I'll make sure I post a picture of them once they are done. If anyone does read this, and wants some halloween invitations, I did make one that I'm selling on ebay.

Two Weeks Left!

Walk Your Butt Off - Week 5

Sept 17 - 30 min easy walk
Sept 18 - 25 min - 3 min mod/easy walk, 2 min speed walk
Sept 19 - 30 min easy walk
Sept 20 - 20 min - 3 min mod/easy walk, 2 min speed walk
Sept 21 - 30 min mod/easy walk
Sept 22 - Off
Sept 23 - Off

Time to Complain

I need to complain. I need a post just for complaining.

I want to start out by saying that I love my family. I love my little family consisting of AJ, me, and Aaron, and I love my family consisting of my four younger brothers and my mom. I want everyone to be healthy, safe, happy, and comfortable financially. The problem is, while I'm healthy, safe, and happy, I'm not comfortable financially. This causes problems when my family calls me to do something.

Lately, I get phone calls at least every other day to drive someone somewhere. I don't have the money to buy gas to do this all the time, but yet I still try to do it, and then I end up shorting myself and worrying about overdrafting my bank account. Normally, the calls are always to take Robert to or pick him up from work. The huge issue is that my mom, who he lives with, lives literally five minutes from his work, while I live 15 minutes away. To take him to work I have to drive past his work to pick him up. A round trip to and from is 10 miles... times that by two for taking to work and then later picking him up from work and I've burned probably an eighth of a tank of gas. I get called to do this three, four times a week.
Now, add in the fact that I recently got a call to pick him up from high school because he had a tummy ache, at 8:30 in the morning while AJ was still asleep. The fact that AJ and I hadn't woken up for the day didn't matter to my mom, she started in on the guilt trip. I went and did it.
Yesterday, Bryan's car broke down. He asked me if I would take him to an important meeting at his work. If he didn't go he would be fired. I of course said yes. I don't want my brother to get fired, he rarely asks me for anything, and I understand the frustration of a broken car. The issue now is that he said his meeting was from 9:30 to 10:30, Aaron had to be at work at 11:00. I'm taking Bryan to work and I asked him when his meeting gets out just to be sure and he tells me 11:30. So Bryan lives nere me, and he works past my mom's house, 15 min away. Lets put this in a rough estimate of miles: I take Bryan to work, and come home to take Aaron to work - 10 miles. I go pick up Bryan from work to take him home - 10 miles. I go back to my mom's house to drop AJ off so I can go to school - 5 miles. I go to school and drive back to my mom's house - 15 miles. I drive home - 5 miles. Grand total for today - 45 miles, 1/4 of a tank of gas.
Now, this may not seem like a big deal to some, but imagine having all of 75 cents to last you until Friday, and only having just a little less than 1/2 a tank of gas.
The question that is probably burning some of you away is why don't I ask for money. Well, I do ask all the time, but it makes me feel extremely guilty. I also can't ask Bryan because I know he doesn't have any money. To make matters worse for my guilt, my mom tells me that Bryan's car is beyond repair. I want to help him, I don't want him to worry. Why? Because he's my little brother and I love him dearly. Reality sets in, I can't help him. I can't even help myself at this point.
I guess my point is that right now without any money at all, I can't help anyone, but yet they don't seem to understand this. I've explained it again and again that I can't afford any gas but I still get calls to do it. It's like they think that I pee gasoline or something and I can magically fill up my car whenever I want. If I had the money it wouldn't be a problem.... or.... would it???

My time... since I've had a child, I don't have any time. Sleep is precious. If AJ feels the need to sleep in, I'm more than happy to oblige. Getting a phone call that wakes both of us up to go somewhere makes me angry. With the small amount of time that I seem to have during the day, I'm taking care of AJ, cleaning, or doing school work. Sometimes we get the rare option of spending time together with Aaron as a family. I think that my family thinks I'm just sitting around all day watching tv. They expect when they call me that I'll just stop whatever I am doing to meet their every needs.
I do work sometime, I'm a mom all the time, I clean sometimes, I use to take care of myself rarely. Now, I'm trying to exercise, which I have had to find time for amidst all of my other chaos, and whenever I try to get my exercise done.... I get a phone call, or the baby wakes up, or I have too much school work, or it's to late and I have to work in the morning.

WHEN WILL PEOPLE LET ME TAKE CARE OF ME!!!!

Walk Your Butt Off - Week 3 and 4

Week 3 -

Sept 3 - 25 min easy walk
Sept 4 - Off
Sept 5 - 20 min easy walk
Sept 6 - 15 min - 4 min mod easy walk, 1 min speed walk, repeat
Sept 7 - Off
Sept 8 - Off
Sept 9 - Off


Week 4

Sept 10 - 30 min easy walk
Sept 11 - 25 min mod easy walk
Sept 12 - 25 min easy walk
Sept 13 - 20 min - 4 min mod easy walk, 1 min speek walk, repeat
Sept 14 - 25 min mod easy walk
Sept 15 - Off
Sept 16 - Off

Clean Clean Clean

Today I started to deep clean my house. I'm going to try and take it a room a day, but I don't think it will actually be one room everyday. I have to go to school and I try to work as well so there will be days when I won't actually get to do a room. I started with the bathroom today. I picked that room because it is actually one of my favorite rooms to clean. I know what you're thinking, yuck! I seriously prefer cleaning bathrooms over any other room in the house. It's a small room, at least mine is, and everything can be cleaned and organized, and come on admit it! Everyone loves how nice a bathroom looks when it is clean.

I don't have much money right now so Ididn't have all the cleaning supplies that I needed but I found a wonderful can clean almost anything solution. Some of you probably already know this but 1 cup water 1 cup rubbing alcohol and 1 tablespoon vinegar. I love the smell of lysol but I know a few people who can't stand it, the vinegar solution cleans just as well and the smell is gone once whatever you are cleaning is dry. I cleaned the mirror with it and I didn't have any paper towels so I used a rag, and my mirror is spotless and dried very fast.

I started by sweeping the ceiling and walls. The people who lived here before never really cleaned and we haven't cleaned the creavases in the walls so there was a ton of dust. I cleaned the sink and counter and the toilet. Next I need to clean the shower and bathtub, and then I'm going to organize the alcove. Last, I'll sweep and mop the floor. The best thing, the vinegar solution can be used on everything except the grout and I have bathroom cleaner for that. Yes, you can use the vinegar solution on the floor.

So, I just took a little break to blog this very very interesting blog (can't you smell the sarcasm!)

Back to work, hope all is well with everyone.