What's Up?

What's up with me? Everything and nothing at the same time. I'm up way early for who knows what reason, and AJ is as well. We'll both probably need a nap soon and it's only 7:30 lol.
So, here is what I've been up to: cleaning my house, going to work, doing my schoolwork, being a mom, being a girlfriend, working on halloween invitations... just whatever comes my way.

School is going very well. I'm keeping up quite well, even with a baby. I'm very proud of myself. I'm actually going to work when I can. I didn't go yesterday, but that was because the baby was sick on Monday and Aaron stayed up all night with him. I didn't want to go to work and have him stay up with him all day as well, Daddy needs sleep too!!!

Yes, I did say Halloween invitations! Heather and I are going to throw a Halloween party. There are actually two seperate parties in one. There is Thomas' Boo Bash for 4+ and AJ's Pumpkin Patch for 3 and under. The Halloween invitations are nice. I'll make sure I post a picture of them once they are done. If anyone does read this, and wants some halloween invitations, I did make one that I'm selling on ebay.

Two Weeks Left!

Walk Your Butt Off - Week 5

Sept 17 - 30 min easy walk
Sept 18 - 25 min - 3 min mod/easy walk, 2 min speed walk
Sept 19 - 30 min easy walk
Sept 20 - 20 min - 3 min mod/easy walk, 2 min speed walk
Sept 21 - 30 min mod/easy walk
Sept 22 - Off
Sept 23 - Off

Time to Complain

I need to complain. I need a post just for complaining.

I want to start out by saying that I love my family. I love my little family consisting of AJ, me, and Aaron, and I love my family consisting of my four younger brothers and my mom. I want everyone to be healthy, safe, happy, and comfortable financially. The problem is, while I'm healthy, safe, and happy, I'm not comfortable financially. This causes problems when my family calls me to do something.

Lately, I get phone calls at least every other day to drive someone somewhere. I don't have the money to buy gas to do this all the time, but yet I still try to do it, and then I end up shorting myself and worrying about overdrafting my bank account. Normally, the calls are always to take Robert to or pick him up from work. The huge issue is that my mom, who he lives with, lives literally five minutes from his work, while I live 15 minutes away. To take him to work I have to drive past his work to pick him up. A round trip to and from is 10 miles... times that by two for taking to work and then later picking him up from work and I've burned probably an eighth of a tank of gas. I get called to do this three, four times a week.
Now, add in the fact that I recently got a call to pick him up from high school because he had a tummy ache, at 8:30 in the morning while AJ was still asleep. The fact that AJ and I hadn't woken up for the day didn't matter to my mom, she started in on the guilt trip. I went and did it.
Yesterday, Bryan's car broke down. He asked me if I would take him to an important meeting at his work. If he didn't go he would be fired. I of course said yes. I don't want my brother to get fired, he rarely asks me for anything, and I understand the frustration of a broken car. The issue now is that he said his meeting was from 9:30 to 10:30, Aaron had to be at work at 11:00. I'm taking Bryan to work and I asked him when his meeting gets out just to be sure and he tells me 11:30. So Bryan lives nere me, and he works past my mom's house, 15 min away. Lets put this in a rough estimate of miles: I take Bryan to work, and come home to take Aaron to work - 10 miles. I go pick up Bryan from work to take him home - 10 miles. I go back to my mom's house to drop AJ off so I can go to school - 5 miles. I go to school and drive back to my mom's house - 15 miles. I drive home - 5 miles. Grand total for today - 45 miles, 1/4 of a tank of gas.
Now, this may not seem like a big deal to some, but imagine having all of 75 cents to last you until Friday, and only having just a little less than 1/2 a tank of gas.
The question that is probably burning some of you away is why don't I ask for money. Well, I do ask all the time, but it makes me feel extremely guilty. I also can't ask Bryan because I know he doesn't have any money. To make matters worse for my guilt, my mom tells me that Bryan's car is beyond repair. I want to help him, I don't want him to worry. Why? Because he's my little brother and I love him dearly. Reality sets in, I can't help him. I can't even help myself at this point.
I guess my point is that right now without any money at all, I can't help anyone, but yet they don't seem to understand this. I've explained it again and again that I can't afford any gas but I still get calls to do it. It's like they think that I pee gasoline or something and I can magically fill up my car whenever I want. If I had the money it wouldn't be a problem.... or.... would it???

My time... since I've had a child, I don't have any time. Sleep is precious. If AJ feels the need to sleep in, I'm more than happy to oblige. Getting a phone call that wakes both of us up to go somewhere makes me angry. With the small amount of time that I seem to have during the day, I'm taking care of AJ, cleaning, or doing school work. Sometimes we get the rare option of spending time together with Aaron as a family. I think that my family thinks I'm just sitting around all day watching tv. They expect when they call me that I'll just stop whatever I am doing to meet their every needs.
I do work sometime, I'm a mom all the time, I clean sometimes, I use to take care of myself rarely. Now, I'm trying to exercise, which I have had to find time for amidst all of my other chaos, and whenever I try to get my exercise done.... I get a phone call, or the baby wakes up, or I have too much school work, or it's to late and I have to work in the morning.

WHEN WILL PEOPLE LET ME TAKE CARE OF ME!!!!

Walk Your Butt Off - Week 3 and 4

Week 3 -

Sept 3 - 25 min easy walk
Sept 4 - Off
Sept 5 - 20 min easy walk
Sept 6 - 15 min - 4 min mod easy walk, 1 min speed walk, repeat
Sept 7 - Off
Sept 8 - Off
Sept 9 - Off


Week 4

Sept 10 - 30 min easy walk
Sept 11 - 25 min mod easy walk
Sept 12 - 25 min easy walk
Sept 13 - 20 min - 4 min mod easy walk, 1 min speek walk, repeat
Sept 14 - 25 min mod easy walk
Sept 15 - Off
Sept 16 - Off

Clean Clean Clean

Today I started to deep clean my house. I'm going to try and take it a room a day, but I don't think it will actually be one room everyday. I have to go to school and I try to work as well so there will be days when I won't actually get to do a room. I started with the bathroom today. I picked that room because it is actually one of my favorite rooms to clean. I know what you're thinking, yuck! I seriously prefer cleaning bathrooms over any other room in the house. It's a small room, at least mine is, and everything can be cleaned and organized, and come on admit it! Everyone loves how nice a bathroom looks when it is clean.

I don't have much money right now so Ididn't have all the cleaning supplies that I needed but I found a wonderful can clean almost anything solution. Some of you probably already know this but 1 cup water 1 cup rubbing alcohol and 1 tablespoon vinegar. I love the smell of lysol but I know a few people who can't stand it, the vinegar solution cleans just as well and the smell is gone once whatever you are cleaning is dry. I cleaned the mirror with it and I didn't have any paper towels so I used a rag, and my mirror is spotless and dried very fast.

I started by sweeping the ceiling and walls. The people who lived here before never really cleaned and we haven't cleaned the creavases in the walls so there was a ton of dust. I cleaned the sink and counter and the toilet. Next I need to clean the shower and bathtub, and then I'm going to organize the alcove. Last, I'll sweep and mop the floor. The best thing, the vinegar solution can be used on everything except the grout and I have bathroom cleaner for that. Yes, you can use the vinegar solution on the floor.

So, I just took a little break to blog this very very interesting blog (can't you smell the sarcasm!)

Back to work, hope all is well with everyone.

6 Week Walking Program - Week 2

August 27 - 20 min easy walk
August 28 - 15 min moderately easy walk
August 29 - 20 min easy walk
August 30 - 20 min moderately easy walk
August 31 - Off
September 1 - Off
September 2 - Off

A full Week

Alrighty! I haven't posted for about a week. So, I'm going to start with last weekend.

Last Sunday:
Grandma took AJ over night and they had a ton of fun. Daddy and I had a lot of fun too. We went to the bar and played some pool, and we both got very very drunk, but me probably more than Aaron. Lets see, I started out with a Tequila Sunrise, which was ok. I had the choice between that or a Long Island Ice Tea, but that one was gross, so Aaron drank it. Then the bartender made me something that looked like the Tequila Sunrise, but it was made with Vodka. After some searching online I believe it was a Vodka Sunrise. Anyway, I had a couple of those. I also had a Red Headed Slut, and tried an apple flavored shot, but I do not remember what it was called. I didn't like it though. Oh boy was I smashed.
Acouple days before one of the drivers at Aaron's work had gotten a tip from the porn shop next to the bar that included 20% off of any purchase. So, of course since I was good and drunk we went next door to use it. Aaron stayed at the front while I was taken around the store with the cashier lady just handing me stuff. I think we got like 3 toys and a video all for about $40. I have to say though, if I were not drunk I would not have gotten the toys she gave me. To me the toys that I got were boring. I also was too drunk to actually watch the video when I got home, and still have not watched it lol.
Anyway, after my trip into and around the porn store, we sat out from to wait for the taxi. We got home, and I threw up everything, which is a definite first for me.

Monday:
Complete, horrible, nasty hangover. I swear when I woke up I was still drunk. I was dizzy and shakey, but I had to go pick up AJ. I brought AJ home, and sad to say... I turned on the tv and gave him a ton of toys and I layed down. Daddy, AJ, and I actually napped together most of the day.

Wednesday:
This was a very busy day for me. Since I have been out of work for a couple of weeks, I literally have no money to my name. I decided to take a substituting job. It was a three day job, and Aaron works Wednesday and Friday mornings, so I had to get a babysitter. Normally, I won't be working on the days that Aaron works all day, but I'm in desperate need of income at this point. My cousin Shawn watched AJ for me. I substituted at a middle school for a business ed class that had no teacher yet. Since I wasn't prepared to not have to teach, I stuck to watch the previous substitute had been doing. I showed two 15 min movies on entry level careers. I gave them a quiz on both movies, and then had them write a short essay. My God, these kids should not be in the seventh grade. Amazingly, half these kids did not know how to spell True. As I was grading the papers, a lot put down yes or no or Ture and False. This is sad. I knew how to spell true in grade school.
This was also my first day of school. I got out of my job at 4:20 and drove all the way home to get AJ, which took 30 minutes. I took Aaron to work, and dropped AJ off at my mom's house, this took another 15 minutes. I still had to get some art supplies for my class, took 10 min. Then it took 30 min to get to school. My class started at 5:30. If you do the math, I was late for my first day of school.
Class went pretty well, a lot of people did not have their art supplies so we couldn't do the work. We did get to leave early. I went to pick AJ up from my mom's and then drove over to Heather's house. It was time to start our second week of Walk Your Butt Off, which I believe I'll have to post the second week's schedule even though it's already over. We also weighed, measured, and took pictures of ourselves. I'm so proud: I've lost two pounds, and some places have lost about 1/4 inch but we'll probably chalk that up to mismeasurement.

Thursday:
Went to work again. I taught each class how to make a monthly budget. Of course quite a few students let me know that they were not in math class and shouldn't have to do this. I rushed home so Aaron could get to work on time.
AJ and I went to Heather's and we Walked Our Butt Off.

Friday:
Yet again, I went to work. Shawn watched AJ again. About two periods into the day, Heather called me and told me that she took Thomas to the doctor, and he has Impetigo. It's a contagious skin rash. I needed to get AJ checked out. It is not common over age 6, but Thomas is 6 and AJ isn't even a year, so it was better to be safe. I left work early, and drove AJ to the doctor. He does have a sore on his nose, but there was no way to tell if it was infected until it spread. So, he was prescribed an antibiotic ointment just in case.
I also tried to go to my school because me financial aid has not been configured and my it was my due date. Turns out they were not open as late as I thought they were, and needless to say... I was dropped from my classes, and now I need to wait until Tuesday to get it figured out.
I went to my mom's house to spend some time over there because I had borrowed her car and she needed it back. AJ was sitting next to Uncle Jonathan when he reached over and pulled the cheese out of Uncle Jonathan's fresh out of the oven pizza. AJ immediately started to scream. It took me a second before I realized what happened and then started pulling the cheese off of his hand, and I ran him to the sink to run cold water on it. AJ was screaming still and I was trying to calm him down. His hand was beet red. Jonathan was very upset, almost crying. I was then trying to comfort both him and the baby. I tried to call Aaron at work, but he didn't answer his phone, and when I called his work number they wouldn't let me talk to him. I was fuming... angry... I wanted to beat his face in.
I put AJ in the car and was on my way to the walk in clinic when I remember I didn't have his insurance card. My house was just down the street. I got to my house looked at AJ's hand, it wasn't red anymore, just pinkish. I went back to the walk in clinic, and found out they didn't take AJ's insurance but that there was an emergency pediatrician down the street that did. I put AJ back in the car, looked at his hand, and it wasn't pink anymore.. it was just baby colored skin. I felt his skin, it wasn't hot, and he wasn't upset when I touched it. So, I took him home, loved on him, fed him, played with him, gave him a bath, loved on him some more, and put my very tired boy to bed.

Saturday:
Yesterday... Had a fight with my mom.... I did two days worth of walking because friday was too stressful and busy to walk.
I made homemade fishstick and corn on the cob... mmmm it was yummy.
My brother spent the night, and was very helpful. One of Aaron's coworkers offered to close the store for him, so Jonathan watched AJ (he was already asleep for the night) so Aaron and I could go play pool. I suck at pool, and I didn't drink, but it was still really fun. We played two games of pool and two games of this sack throwing video game thing. Aaron beat me at pool, and once at the sack game. I beat him the other time. I really enjoy spending time with Aaron. He's my love, and I am still amazed at how much you could love someone and still be in love with someone after living with them for over a year, expecially being pregnant for the first half of that.
I guess sometimes its hard to forget that your past experiences will not always be what it will be like in the future. I have to remember that Aaron is not at all like Kevin, and he will never be like Kevin, so I don't have to worry.

Well, that's it for today. I'm going to do some school work. I'm going to design some cards for my hopefully new crafting idea. I'm going to take care of my son, probably do an exercise video, and clean my house, WOOHOO!